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Now I will speaks out about myself. I get bored and for dis whole time, I wanna introduce my bad ways. Actually I have no idea to write what. But I’m trying to lead my mind. I’m pretty sure you don’t want an 17 y-o girl who knows nothing about life. Yeah, I’m not call my self as a cool-mature-girl, but here it is anyway.. I always feel lonely even when I’m in de crowds, I always feel like I’m the most stupid person in my family no matter what I do. I experienced something in life where I feel like I don’t belong anywhere and nobody understand me and somehow I always feel that every bad things that happens in life is my fault. The things I can’t do is… thinking over, you know? The second things is.. I have a problem when I trying to started to build myself, I can’t realize to be able to appreciate and actually realize that people around me do care and love.. I don’t know how to handle dat problem

I’m a person with many troubles inside of me, I always awkward, so many my personality giving me a hard time.. I was stepped for many moment while I can’t forget, losing someone, gone by.. everyone like a lady killer monster and go away from here, finding a new life.. and I’m here, just sit here, nothing to do. I tell, even I’m in de crowd, I still feel alone.. entahh.. I realize this life must go on with every single piece of story, we need to deal, we need to be strong, move on, and always be positive thinker!

My brother past away, my mother almost divorced, my family in troubles, who cares? I’m not blaming, I’m not got mad or something crushed my heart. I just feel.. why am i? one question which no one can answer. Ya because everyone told me, this is your life, enjoy and survive! In other hands, I thought this problem will build me up step by step… even I don’t feel the name of mature, enjoyed life, find for a happiness mean.. yeah too short too walked..

PS: I’m okay by the way :’)